Christmas 2007

Ok you asked for it. Said I could say anything. Well here goes. I have been born again for over 40 years, have taught Sunday School etc. I will not bore you with all those details. This year has been absolutely the worst. My husband has not had a job for over 4 years. He applied for disability and still has not gotten it. I have tried to make all the house payments but alas foreclosure finally happened in June, then our car broke so badly that we just junked it. Then in August my husband died. I have a 40 year old niece that just had a stoke and can not see or talk, and now I have found out that one of my sister's have a life threatening liver problem. I keep thinking of Psalm 22 and feel like I have been abandoned and that there is no hope and I feel so helpless that I just can't seem to keep going. I know Christ died for me and that should be enough and I should praise His name but I am so sad and just can't find the energy to do it. I feel so bad, that I have let my Saviour down but I am done. I can't take anymore and now I have to have this Christmas without my husband who I have been married to for 40 years. Just does not seem fair to me my faith is slipping fast.